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I can safely say that I now know what a busy day is. Yesterday I completed five days worth of volunteering for a reality tv show in the city and although tremendous fun the last day has taken a lot out of me. I think I was on the go for around 19 hours and I sat down for maybe 10 minutes. Add to the pot little sleep and having to work early this morning and you’ve got one exhausted Emma.

I wouldn’t have done it any other way :) . I find it extremely comforting to feel the ache in my legs and the knots on my shoulders because it means I gave my all. I worked as hard as I possibly could and my body is absolute proof of this.

I am still completely excited about being part of this production and I am a little sad to see it end. Regardless, this means I should have more time for other things. As soooooon as I am back in shape and on top of things the novel development will begin once more. I have a couple of ideas for short stories floating around in my head too which might need considering over the next few weeks.

I’ve also begun reading the pile of books in my room. So far this week I finished ‘The Time Machine’ by Wells and read both ‘Anne of Green Gables’ by Montgomery and ‘Black Beauty’ by Anne Sewell, all of which I enjoyed thoroughly. Next on the list is Austen’s ‘Pride and Prejudice’.

All exciting stuff!

Until next time, adventurers :) .

Long time no blog!

Summer is finally here! Sure, the weather may be chilly still, but I am free from school until September and thus Summer break has started for myself and my friends.

I find myself in a very good position as of late, both mentally and physically. Just a few of things that have helped are getting a PA job for a shoot with Debbie Travis here in London, ON, receiving an award from college/Rogers TV for Leadership Potential and being given co-presidency of the magazine “Full Disclosure”, which over the past year I have been writing for. All of these things reiterate that what I’m doing and how I’m doing it is right. I’ve been following my gut instincts for so long now and it’s finally paying off!

It means that this Summer is going to be a very busy one if I want to continue on this path. I have a ton of things to organize with the founder of FD, Katie, and my co-president, Melissa, and this will no doubt keep me plenty busy, but I also have a ton of other plans I want to see executed over the next four months.

They are – drum roll, please -

- LEARN FRENCH.

- Finish the novel (I’ll come to this more later).

- Buy a guitar, learn to play.

- Screenplay.

- HP Spoof.

- Write, edit and find homes for my short stories/poetry.

I need to come back to the Novel for a moment. My friend, Dan, and I have decided to support one another this Summer so we both finish our novels. I’ll be using this blog to update my word count regularly, as well as to spaz about characters and plot lines that are driving me nuts. I cannot wait to get back into the driving seat of this thing and will probably leap into it tonight.

As of now, though, my word count stands at a measly 4, 307 words. I’m doing a George Lucas and am writing the second novel of this story before the first. I have storylines for both and they will weave into one another so well, but the second has taken my heart, mind and fingers away from the first for now. I hope this will not mean my undoing!

Until next time, brave souls.

I still love you.

I wonder what would happen if you caught me glancing and smiling the way I do. I nod occasionally as I remember times that showed me what impossible is all about, but it does not mean I can quell my heart. In fact, quite the opposite.

You are insufferable – a man without motive or direction, yet you seem to sweep everyone up into your arms and drag them down an uncertain path – all they have is blinded, unrewarded devotion.

Yet, you are amazing. You have this way about you that makes everything simple, unplanned and earthy. Each singular thread of your life is wrapped around a tapestry that is too tiny to notice the direction it moves in, but move it does, regardless.

I wonder what you would do.

I am seriously considering locking myself away for a while.

I have a bajillion books to read, so it’s not as if I would be bored. I’m just fucked off with how things are going right now, and how much time I am wasting caring about it and you. I’m thinking more and more that time in isolation is the way forward. The way to fix this.

You’re just like him. Every part of you is perfection; even when imperfection lies with its face showing it is still done perfectly, without a blemish to show. It is a tad infuriating.

I long to be free.

In Other News:

I saw Cloverfield today. It was brilliant. I was a little scared in some parts but that’s mainly because it was done so realistically that I began to get caught up in what was happening. At the end, the entire theatre was silent. We gathered our things quietly as the credits rolled. Friends and family looked at one another for reassurance as we all made our way out the door. It was the strangest experience I have had for the end of a film.

Don’t wait for the DVD, go see it at the theatre. You’ll not regret seeing it in that atmosphere.

Next up on my to watch list: ‘There Will Be Blood’, and by golly gee there will.

I’ll be honest – I’m not coping very well lately.

Through a conglomeration of events over the past few weeks I’ve grown more accustomed to feeling inferior and lower than thou. I won’t go into itty bitty detail because: a) that would be telling, and b) I’d probably make things worse than they already are.

I just find that I keep coming back to this same situation in my life and I wonder if this is it, if I’m going to be stuck on this perpetual pendulum until I decide to kick the bucket.

Maybe I’m just reading too much into things again, and quite possibly everyone feels exactly the same way, but I just can’t get out of this funk.

Long time, no blog.

I’m finding it a bit difficult to update this when I have so much on, so it’s hardly surprising that at this moment I am free of school. As of last night (twenty-four hours ago now) I became free of school responsibilities until January.

However, this does not mean that I am without things to do. I have a list as long as my arm of things I am expecting myself to do over Christmas, and despite it being only the first day I have already started on a few things.

Expectations include the following:

  • Massive rewrite/reedit/organisation of ‘The Locket’.
  • Continuation of THE NOVEL.
  • Photo-shoot/gallavant next week with Stu.
  • Scouting locations for Jackie/Jess shoots.
  • Edit pomes from the pometree.
  • Start writing some of those ideas, woman. You know, those ideas you have scribbled all over paper everywhere.
  • Full Disclosure interview – gogogo transcript.

. . . and so on. No, I am never settled.

My heart groans lately. There are two; one I know is impossible, the other I have hope for. It is a deep hope, ingrained upon my very veins. Stay young, little hope, for I have plans for you.

I am terribly, terribly nervous as of this moment. Sitting in a class, getting ready to present a short film is possibly one of the scariest things I have done in a while, especially when all the others I have seen are very well done. I am confident in the knowledge that I am a novice compared to others with the software and with the operations of shooting and editing a video, but it still makes me wary to go up against them in this sort of atmosphere.

Still, I guess I’ll get better with more experience, and this IS experience after all.

Wish me luck! :)

emily: yeah i’m sending my sister syphillis

Clearly one of the best quotes yet – inspired by a conversation about www.giantmicrobes.com

I sit down, like every other day, convinced that I will be productive. I pop my laptop on, organize my work space, write a mental list of everything that needs doing, and yet I am still in the same position I had been 2 hours previous. In fact, this happens so often that I forget this is not an ideal situation and merely accept that the internet will distract me.

Facebook, email, IM services, youtube – no matter what it is, the Internet has a vice like quality that will rip you from your most important work and leave you in a constant state of distraction. There may be some who argue these distractions will help ease your stress – that to work productively you first must feel comforted. Why do we take the Internet as a comforting place to be, and more importantly, why do we feel we should run our lives by it and, more often than not, through it?

The internet delivers a universe of information right to our desks and despite this I see many, including myself, wasting this opportunity away on seemingly pointless websites. But are they really pointless? Facebook, for instance, keeps people connected with one another – it enables cross country friends and family to stay up to date with the latest news on Little Joey and his baseball team, on Susie and her new school year and with plans for reunions and family events. This is an excellent way of combining busy schedules with the need to keep one another in the loop. However, facebook is not all that simple. Watching people in lecture halls, I witness many, many people logging onto facebook to check on their messages, and then begin to “creep” one another for the entirety of the lecture time. Infact, even as I write this, I have facebook open on my browser. Part of me could justify this – ‘it was open so I could write this article’, but the better part of me knows that this is not true. It is open because, like many people, we are trapped into a constant cycle of reload. Why are we so afraid that something new may have happened in the past 20 seconds that we haven’t noticed or seen yet? Are a few hours or days, even, going to affect the way that we live? Instead of facebooking one another, why not pick up the phone, or even meet face to face for coffee (or your poison of choice)?

This brings me to my next qualm. Are websites like Facebook removing our humanity? I bet you’re thinking ‘Woah, slow down there. It’s just a website’. Is it just a website, though? When we spend countless hours browsing through pages of our friends, and their friends, and sometimes even their friends; when we send one another digital “gifts” to wish a Happy Birthday, or to express our gratitude or sadness; when we post messages on each other’s “walls” instead of talking to one another – all of these point to a lack of togetherness. We are together, but apart – wound around one another by invisible walls of energy and copper wires.

The internet may be an area of relative democracy, but I grow increasingly worried about our dependency on websites like Facebook, and what it might be distracting us from, and the affect it may have on person to person interaction in years to come.

jus de pommes

and watch faces -

a lingering moment

between

screams and insults

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